As I flip through the pages of my life
The binding is old but the pages are new
They are tattered and worn, well used

As I turn a page the words play out their story
They evoke the images as though in a film
They run through my life one scene at a time

I suppress a giggle here, laughing out loud there
My eyes flood, as I wipe away a tear of regret,
And then letting them fall, in memory of that lost friend

I smile as I revisit the birth of my children,
Feel my heart pain as I stand at the death beds of my grandparents
So many memories, so much love, joy, fear, sorrow, pleasure….

Finally I turn the last page, the next is blank, an empty canvas
With pen in hand, I start to ink out the first day of my new year
You see today it MY new beginning, today is my birth day!

I stand on the edge of time
Overlooking the vastness of it all
Seeing both the present and the past
And far off in the distance, the future.

What grand design will unfurl?
Will I remain or be gone tomorrow?
Will I be eternally happy or drown in sorrow?
Will I find love or has my heart had its fill?

Only tomorrow will tell.

Even though it may be long in coming
The end is on its way.
All we can do is play out the grand design
And take the lessons of each life to the next

Live, love, laugh
These are what life is meant to be about
Live the grand design
Love and be loved
Laugh at the idiosyncrasies of life

Only tomorrow will tell.

For time to creeps by slowly
Seconds to feel like minutes
Minutes like hours
Hours like days

My wish is….

To hold back the hands of time
So time spent with you would last forever
My heart would never need to break
For there shall be no bitter sweet parture

My wish is….

To lay here with you till your dieing day
Never to leave your side
Forever to gaze into your loving eyes
Hold you. To feel the warmth of embrace

My wish is….

For you live on
To never see you draw your last breath
For you to see your children grow
And become more than we could ever dream

My wish is….

To lay you down with out pain
To lift your soul, to set it free
Stop all the hurting, remove all tears
To have the strength to let you leave

My wish is….

For you to move on, to become more
For you to watch over me, guide me
For you to welcome me home
When it is time for me to leave

My wish is….

To see you close your eyes one last time
To hold you close when you draw your last breath
To see the pain and suffering to leave your beautiful face
To say good bye, my beautiful lady of grace.

In your forest I stand
With it’s roots entwined
between my toes they hide
Spreading your warmth inside

With my hands outspread
My thanks to you I send
For the soul in me you did mend
When it felt warn out & spent

I come to you now
For I have found
A soul drifting at night
In need of your guiding light

On the cord of my soul
She has tugged
A little hand holding tight
In need of your guiding light

Follow the cord leading to my heart
Buried deep with in you will find
All though she is not of my kin
In time gone she may have been

I ask of you though not for me
A guiding light for Aubrey to be
Hold her little hand tight
Give her your strength, lead her to the light.